Aspirations

There are times when I think everything is possible. 

It's like the world is limitless. Like, nothing can ever stop me. 

Except for Allah, that is. 

Yet now, I always managed to find myself on the end of pessimism. Another reason why I don't like putting too much thought on an issue when I actually can just do it on a whim. 

Sometimes, I still find myself at the moment still afloat. Trying to fulfilling my purpose of life while at the same time wondering how. 

Sometimes, this world feels so surreal. Like the happiness, sadness, families, and friends that I have is just "there" for a moment. And then, they're gone. 

I'll never know if there are others who felt the same way, but I truly hope if there were to be one, we can both come to term that this world is indeed, a pit stop. 

For a wayfarer, like me. Like every single human on this earth. 

"Kun fiddunya ka annaka ghariibun"

Be in this world as though you're a wayfarer. 

I aspire to do what my heart tells me, yet at times I need to face the wall of reality. 

The reality hits me like a brick, with a full force speed. 

When I yearn for a step further, it harshly push me to square one. 

It's not like I am giving up. I am just stating its fact from what I've been through. 

And the struggle gets ever so hard. So hard sometimes it can crush you. 

If only not for God and good company, I would've crumbled to the pressure. 

It's not like I've never been at the bottom ever. The course goes up and down and static maybe. There will be tidal waves crashing on you, whether to bring you up...or down. 

"Wakafaa biLlahi wakeela"