of gratitude...

Salam...
Alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah...

That's really what I should say every single day. I shouldn't forget to remember Allah everyday in my life. We,muslims always take for granted the things that we have in life and that includes me. You see, I didn't really understand WELL when 'islam' is said to be the best of all things that Allah's given to us. I just know that it's simply the best gift from our Creator but I never knew the real meaning behind it.

One event caused a huge impact on me(i shall not disclose it here,though), which made me really think what it really means to be a 'muslim'..alhamdulillah. Seriously I'm telling you, we never really think about Allah's helps in our life which is like all the time,24/7,every single minutes,seconds and till now(yeah,i mean now!). I used to feel inferior to others before, feel really useless and keeps asking wat's the point of me living in this world? Really!!Do I have any role at all?

And, alhamdulillah...I'm really gratefull for I've been given the understanding by Allah through his messengers. Thank you so much!!I'm moved to tears whenever I started to think back wat I've been doing for the past years. Subhanallah, You're simply amazing, Ya Allah!! Anyhow, as we know, our 'iman' increase and decrease...Well, truthfully, few weeks after sem 3 started, I'm kinda back to my 'old' self again. I know that I'm doing wrong things, but I keep doing it. The most amazing part was that I can feel that my soul do not like what I'm doing(seriously speaking, I really can feel it). I tried to search for help but you know.... I'm never good in expressing my feelings to others so yeah, I keep doing the wrongdoings.Astaghfirullah...

To cut it short, Allah saved me again through the ummahfilms vids. When I watch the video, it really made me laugh out loud(LOL) but most importantly,it makes me think about You, Ya Allah. It REALLY makes me think of You all the time.

I'm really 10000000000x thankful to You. It's an indescribable feeling. You made me realize so much, I mean real much! How ungrateful I am to you..I only think about you whenever I perform my obligatory acts. I'm ashamed of myself...If it were not through your messages, I'd be lost.....lost from You. Alhamdulillah, praise be upon You for You're helping me throughout my life.I wish to be better and better and to strengthen myself for the future that I've yet to encounter with Your guidance...insyaAllah.

p/s : this post is meant to be a reminder for myself and others...insyaAllah.
finals are coming...huhu. Better start revising now...

Salam~~

speechless!!

Salam..

Really!! I do not know what to say..Hmm..I wish there's nobody reading this bcoz sincerely, I created this blog just to say what I had in mind(which makes it no different from other blog).I'm never good in expressing my real feelings towards others.Seriously speaking, I'd never thought about this before but I think I'm a better listener than a talker. And for a fact, I write better rather than speaking with others bcoz I'm socially inept.Yep, I'm quite hopeless when talking with people!

I tend to observe others from far and somehow, it makes me happy whenever they're happy(esp the closeness of my friends).Frankly, I want to have a greater conviction to serve the purpose of living in this world in a better way. I want to grow stronger along with my fellow friends!!I want my opinion to be noticed but I failed miserably bcoz I lacked idea as to what to say to them. My brain just went blank whenever I speak to someone and I just nod to them whenever they're saying something...

I feel really embarrassed with myself if I were to compare what I've written here with others(esp ami and hanisah who writes really well and sensibly). I simply write senseless things here; sometimes I write utter nonsense. And, I've come to realize that I'm not ready yet to share with others except 'you', what I've written here bcoz it's complete nonsense and everything's jumbled up.I........really do not know how to say this in a better word.I hope you'd understand,my friend.

p/s : ak x nak jadi popular...hehehe.