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An ukht asked me few days ago,

What's your 5-year plan?

And that question left me hanging (of course, I didn't say anything)...because I haven't been planning at all. 

Well, maybe there are some things I'd like to achieve in 5-years time. 

But truth is, I haven't really plan that well at all. 

Every single day, I've been thinking that I am going to die today.

And that thought, I guess in a way, makes me very pessismistic that I am going to live for another day. 

Maybe I am growing pessimistic after all. 

I've been thinking that I do not want to get married, just because so I will have one in Jannah (if I were to get into it). 

Man, this is all getting wrong. But I think you get what I mean. 

All I've been thinking, every single day, is that "If I were to die today, will I enter Jannah" ?

Hmmm. 

P/S : Truth is, my lifelong goal is to attain iman that of Abu Bakr. But I am nowhere close sadly :/

Nafas

Sepertinya, kali ini Allah temukan aku dengan mereka mereka itu untuk nafas baru barangkali.

:')

Sepertinya kembali menghirup udara segar, setelah lama di dasar laut.

Dan sentuhan al-ukht as-sodiqah sentiasa menyengat hati aku.

Barangkali hubungannya dengan Sang Maha Pencipta begitu dekat , akrab...hinggakan tempiasnya terkena diriku yang marhaen ini.

Akhlak dan peribadinya yang mulia buat aku cemburu terkadang, kerna aku begitu ingin tahu apa rahsianya..

Ku kira, itu hasil daripada iman yang sodiq (benar). Kerna daripada iman itu, akan terpancarlah segalanya dari dalam diri ke luar diri.

Subhanallah, Allah itu Maha Hebat. Kerana temukan aku dengan satu jiwa yang begitu ikhlas.

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She's that muslimah who always find ways to be the first to do kheir

She's that muslimah who works behind the scenes

She's that muslimah who is quiet, and talks only when needed

She's that muslimah who reminds me whenever I am heedless

She's that muslimah who always find hikmah behind everything happening in her life

She's that muslimah who is very independent, and have full tawakul in her God's plans

She...is that muslimah whose heart is close to her Rabb and full of Him, only.

May Allah bless you dear ukhti :)