Monday, December 23, 2013

IDK

An ukht asked me few days ago,

What's your 5-year plan?

And that question left me hanging (of course, I didn't say anything)...because I haven't been planning at all. 

Well, maybe there are some things I'd like to achieve in 5-years time. 

But truth is, I haven't really plan that well at all. 

Every single day, I've been thinking that I am going to die today.

And that thought, I guess in a way, makes me very pessismistic that I am going to live for another day. 

Maybe I am growing pessimistic after all. 

I've been thinking that I do not want to get married, just because so I will have one in Jannah (if I were to get into it). 

Man, this is all getting wrong. But I think you get what I mean. 

All I've been thinking, every single day, is that "If I were to die today, will I enter Jannah" ?

Hmmm. 

P/S : Truth is, my lifelong goal is to attain iman that of Abu Bakr. But I am nowhere close sadly :/

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