i wonder.....

Salam~

So many things happened these last few days..

I got a shocking news about my sis, never thought it'd turn out that way..

I became an aunty within few hours after the news..alhamdulillah~~Praise to Allah..

A baby girl was born on 20th July 09, at 8 pm...

I'm praying that she's okay though, because she was born prematurely.

And just now, during Bio class, I learnt about the development of the embryo from days to weeks to months..Subhanallah!I totally can relate it with the baby..The baby only weighs 800g when she's supposed to weigh about 1300g after being almost 30 weeks.I think she must be very delicate and fragile.Oh Allah, please protect her.

And yeah,I'm planning with k.ngah to visit k.long this Friday.Mak also will be there wit k.long and her husband.Anyhow, abah and the others are not there which makes me feel quite sad.I really wish all of our family members will be there for k.long but I know that Allah knows what's the best for our family..

Just a few hours ago, our naqibah told us that we must deliver what we've learnt to others so that we wouldn't be like stagnant water.Stagnant water??What's with that? As we all know, stagnant water consists of sediments,filthy wastes etc..It's almost the same with us.If we keep the knowledge that we know to ourselves, soon enough we'll become just like the water; the knowledge will slowly becomes useless and fades away.And, when we tadabbur surah At-Taubah, I felt so shameful of myself. I think i'm very snobbish, thinking that i'm always doing right things without realizing that i can be wrong as well. Thinking that I am better off than somebody else..Astaghfirullah,forgive me Ya Allah!

And every now and then,I kept thinking why do I always feel stressed when I'm here?Why do I feel so uptight? And staying here makes me feel so out of place as if I cannot suit well in this place.The best part is, I survived here.Am I simply putting a facade, pretending to be happy, comforting my heart that I'll survived here no matter what happens? This leads me to think about the power of our mind.The mind stimulates the way we think,sends various signals throughout the body and keep reminding us so many times.The creation of mind for the human is really incredible and nice..How will it be if we,humans do not have minds?Will there be any difference between us and the animals/plants and any other living things?The main point here, after we've been given the greatest gift from Allah, do we use it wisely(to show the difference of human and animals)?

Verily, Allah's given so much power to our minds to make choices in the world.It's really up to us.Thank you, Allah...thank you so much!!With that,I really hope that I'll be able to be one of those who appreciate this special gift from Allah...amin.Insyallah...

Salam~~