of gratitude...

Salam...
Alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah...

That's really what I should say every single day. I shouldn't forget to remember Allah everyday in my life. We,muslims always take for granted the things that we have in life and that includes me. You see, I didn't really understand WELL when 'islam' is said to be the best of all things that Allah's given to us. I just know that it's simply the best gift from our Creator but I never knew the real meaning behind it.

One event caused a huge impact on me(i shall not disclose it here,though), which made me really think what it really means to be a 'muslim'..alhamdulillah. Seriously I'm telling you, we never really think about Allah's helps in our life which is like all the time,24/7,every single minutes,seconds and till now(yeah,i mean now!). I used to feel inferior to others before, feel really useless and keeps asking wat's the point of me living in this world? Really!!Do I have any role at all?

And, alhamdulillah...I'm really gratefull for I've been given the understanding by Allah through his messengers. Thank you so much!!I'm moved to tears whenever I started to think back wat I've been doing for the past years. Subhanallah, You're simply amazing, Ya Allah!! Anyhow, as we know, our 'iman' increase and decrease...Well, truthfully, few weeks after sem 3 started, I'm kinda back to my 'old' self again. I know that I'm doing wrong things, but I keep doing it. The most amazing part was that I can feel that my soul do not like what I'm doing(seriously speaking, I really can feel it). I tried to search for help but you know.... I'm never good in expressing my feelings to others so yeah, I keep doing the wrongdoings.Astaghfirullah...

To cut it short, Allah saved me again through the ummahfilms vids. When I watch the video, it really made me laugh out loud(LOL) but most importantly,it makes me think about You, Ya Allah. It REALLY makes me think of You all the time.

I'm really 10000000000x thankful to You. It's an indescribable feeling. You made me realize so much, I mean real much! How ungrateful I am to you..I only think about you whenever I perform my obligatory acts. I'm ashamed of myself...If it were not through your messages, I'd be lost.....lost from You. Alhamdulillah, praise be upon You for You're helping me throughout my life.I wish to be better and better and to strengthen myself for the future that I've yet to encounter with Your guidance...insyaAllah.

p/s : this post is meant to be a reminder for myself and others...insyaAllah.
finals are coming...huhu. Better start revising now...

Salam~~

speechless!!

Salam..

Really!! I do not know what to say..Hmm..I wish there's nobody reading this bcoz sincerely, I created this blog just to say what I had in mind(which makes it no different from other blog).I'm never good in expressing my real feelings towards others.Seriously speaking, I'd never thought about this before but I think I'm a better listener than a talker. And for a fact, I write better rather than speaking with others bcoz I'm socially inept.Yep, I'm quite hopeless when talking with people!

I tend to observe others from far and somehow, it makes me happy whenever they're happy(esp the closeness of my friends).Frankly, I want to have a greater conviction to serve the purpose of living in this world in a better way. I want to grow stronger along with my fellow friends!!I want my opinion to be noticed but I failed miserably bcoz I lacked idea as to what to say to them. My brain just went blank whenever I speak to someone and I just nod to them whenever they're saying something...

I feel really embarrassed with myself if I were to compare what I've written here with others(esp ami and hanisah who writes really well and sensibly). I simply write senseless things here; sometimes I write utter nonsense. And, I've come to realize that I'm not ready yet to share with others except 'you', what I've written here bcoz it's complete nonsense and everything's jumbled up.I........really do not know how to say this in a better word.I hope you'd understand,my friend.

p/s : ak x nak jadi popular...hehehe.

i wonder.....

Salam~

So many things happened these last few days..

I got a shocking news about my sis, never thought it'd turn out that way..

I became an aunty within few hours after the news..alhamdulillah~~Praise to Allah..

A baby girl was born on 20th July 09, at 8 pm...

I'm praying that she's okay though, because she was born prematurely.

And just now, during Bio class, I learnt about the development of the embryo from days to weeks to months..Subhanallah!I totally can relate it with the baby..The baby only weighs 800g when she's supposed to weigh about 1300g after being almost 30 weeks.I think she must be very delicate and fragile.Oh Allah, please protect her.

And yeah,I'm planning with k.ngah to visit k.long this Friday.Mak also will be there wit k.long and her husband.Anyhow, abah and the others are not there which makes me feel quite sad.I really wish all of our family members will be there for k.long but I know that Allah knows what's the best for our family..

Just a few hours ago, our naqibah told us that we must deliver what we've learnt to others so that we wouldn't be like stagnant water.Stagnant water??What's with that? As we all know, stagnant water consists of sediments,filthy wastes etc..It's almost the same with us.If we keep the knowledge that we know to ourselves, soon enough we'll become just like the water; the knowledge will slowly becomes useless and fades away.And, when we tadabbur surah At-Taubah, I felt so shameful of myself. I think i'm very snobbish, thinking that i'm always doing right things without realizing that i can be wrong as well. Thinking that I am better off than somebody else..Astaghfirullah,forgive me Ya Allah!

And every now and then,I kept thinking why do I always feel stressed when I'm here?Why do I feel so uptight? And staying here makes me feel so out of place as if I cannot suit well in this place.The best part is, I survived here.Am I simply putting a facade, pretending to be happy, comforting my heart that I'll survived here no matter what happens? This leads me to think about the power of our mind.The mind stimulates the way we think,sends various signals throughout the body and keep reminding us so many times.The creation of mind for the human is really incredible and nice..How will it be if we,humans do not have minds?Will there be any difference between us and the animals/plants and any other living things?The main point here, after we've been given the greatest gift from Allah, do we use it wisely(to show the difference of human and animals)?

Verily, Allah's given so much power to our minds to make choices in the world.It's really up to us.Thank you, Allah...thank you so much!!With that,I really hope that I'll be able to be one of those who appreciate this special gift from Allah...amin.Insyallah...

Salam~~

~salam~

Greetings to all, peace be upon you!

Aah,finally...I've been able to create my own blog. I wish to create a blog for such a long time, yet I fail to find a reason to do so until now.Don't ask me why, eh?

I want to have a blog of my own to share my knowledge, experiences and to learn from others as well.Hopefully, it'll be able to help me to reflect upon what I'm doing in my life to be better(with Allah's bless...^_^ ) in the coming days.

Yosh!I'm going to a Japanese event in Shah Alam called Bon Odori this evening.I'm feeling quite happy to go there.Insyallah, I'll get new experience and lots of food there..hihi .FOOD,FOOD,FOOD, wait for me....=)

~~eternal happiness~~~ehehe...*rubs back of head*