Salam...
I'm perplexed with humans or to be exact,myself.Hmm...I don't know.Sometimes,when I think again,I just can't believe that I'm doing a preparation to go to the State.It's just unbelievable.When I reminisce my past,it makes me feel nostalgic.How I've changed so much(or maybe little) to become the one who I am right now.Maybe some people don't even notice the changes I had in myself.
I don't even know if I like the changes in myself.I'd like to be a social recluse once again,I really missed the feeling.Yet,I know that it'd do no good to me as I'm living in a community.It'd be pointless to live in solitude....I guess.*bitter laugh*
Once,my friend even said she saw me as 'kakkoi'.I felt like laughing when she said that coz she's way cooler than me.I am really gonna miss my time in high school especially when you were there with me,my friends.
Dear Farah,I'm in gratitude with you.Thanks so much for giving me a better insight of this life,mainly about the wondrous world of books!I can't express my feeling any better...You really inspire me to do better.I can never feel envious with you because I know that you deserved all the things that you have now.You claim that you're somewhat evil yet, you're one of the kindest and nicest person I've ever met.Sorry for not being the kind of friends whom are always by your side,who listens to your problems or who often contacts you.I'm sorry,my friend.
And soon,you're gonna fly as well but,sadly to other country.I wish I can study in the same uni with you like how we used to study in the same school,but it's already fated that we'll live our separate lives.I pray that you'll be guided by Allah always when you're there.May Allah bless you continuously with His blessings...Thank you so much for being my friend!!Thanks to Allah for making her one of my friends.Though we haven't met for such a long time,I'd never forget you.NEVER.EVER.
p/s: From now onwards,I want to write new vocabs that I've learnt.Love Owl City.Penance-I love this word...XD
I.UNDERSTAND.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Friday, August 7, 2009
random thoughts...
Salam...
Aaah,alhamdulillah...I'm almost finished with the final exam.Just one more to go...MPW!!
Anyways,I'm not here to blab or write/type whatever that happened during the last few papers which were quite unexpected. I just want to voice out my thoughts now...
Okay,here I go..Firstly, I just want to say that I'm tired of the changes around myself.Ok, I get it that you want to change.But, hey!Change for the better but not the worse.What? Are you saying that you feel that being a good person made you less popular or something? Well,think again my dear friends.Gah!!People nowadays are very ignorant. Yeah, seriously very very very ignorant!! Especially us, the muslim ummah. Me included as well coz I'm no better than anyone else and sometimes we tend to take things for granted. BUT then, if you're not doing anything to be better or let's just say.....you like to be ignorant, then you're life is like BLEH...Hmm...I'm not being snobbish or whatsoever you want to call me coz to me, ignorant people are really like BLEH. Oh,come on!Use the 'aql' that Allah's given us..Why do you want to keep doing sin when you know that it's wrong? WHY? WHY? and WHY? I'm so frustrated with myself for I'm such a person who lacks experience in dealing with people like YOU...Why can't I just blatantly express my disapproval of your actions? Aah, maybe that's because I'm socially inept or is it because of my awkwardness when it's time to give advice? I feel so useless bcoz I can only hate your actions wit all my passion in my heart....T____T
Moving on to the next topic....Our life in this world. Don't you know that you can die at any time? Just like the scene in the "Tomorrow Never Comes" film, we must grab the chances that Allah's given us to change for the better. And here, you're proudly proclaiming the so-called "wonderful" life as the best thing that can happen in your life. Don't you ever realize or think about how you will die? Are you going to die in time where you're doing good for Allah or vice versa? It'll surely make you think again when you want to do something. Well, it surely does make me think more about my death when I watch the film from ummahfilms.They sure have done a good and wonderful job in reminding us..Alhamdulillah.May Allah repays their deeds.
Next!!!
I want to talk about uniqueness. Just now during usrah, someone said," I've yet to know what's my uniqueness.So how to know what's unique in ourselves?" to the naqibah. Azimah said that actually sometimes we don't feel like we're unique, but then others can see the uniqueness in ourselves. I agree with you my friend!!So, my response was that I do believe that Allah's created every single person in this world with their own uniqueness. It's just a matter of time for us to discover it.And as for me, I reckon I'll just have to wait and search for it...I really do believe that I'll find it!! Insyallah...May the uniqueness that Allah's given us are being used to get us closer to the Creator.
In conclusion, today's posts are somewhat unorganized and yada yada...But the most important of all is not to be ignorant. Ignorance leads you away from Him and if you don't start to make any changes in yourself (our heart) as in to leave 'maksiat' in order to become better, Allah will not change you for the better as well.And yeah, ignorance is not "bliss".Once again,I'm no better than anyone.. I'm just a muslim who's still trying to find the eternal blessings from Allah.
p/s : This post serves as reminder for myself and others as well...InsyaAllah.
feeling nostalgic....i miss my old self
Salam~~
Aaah,alhamdulillah...I'm almost finished with the final exam.Just one more to go...MPW!!
Anyways,I'm not here to blab or write/type whatever that happened during the last few papers which were quite unexpected. I just want to voice out my thoughts now...
Okay,here I go..Firstly, I just want to say that I'm tired of the changes around myself.Ok, I get it that you want to change.But, hey!Change for the better but not the worse.What? Are you saying that you feel that being a good person made you less popular or something? Well,think again my dear friends.Gah!!People nowadays are very ignorant. Yeah, seriously very very very ignorant!! Especially us, the muslim ummah. Me included as well coz I'm no better than anyone else and sometimes we tend to take things for granted. BUT then, if you're not doing anything to be better or let's just say.....you like to be ignorant, then you're life is like BLEH...Hmm...I'm not being snobbish or whatsoever you want to call me coz to me, ignorant people are really like BLEH. Oh,come on!Use the 'aql' that Allah's given us..Why do you want to keep doing sin when you know that it's wrong? WHY? WHY? and WHY? I'm so frustrated with myself for I'm such a person who lacks experience in dealing with people like YOU...Why can't I just blatantly express my disapproval of your actions? Aah, maybe that's because I'm socially inept or is it because of my awkwardness when it's time to give advice? I feel so useless bcoz I can only hate your actions wit all my passion in my heart....T____T
Moving on to the next topic....Our life in this world. Don't you know that you can die at any time? Just like the scene in the "Tomorrow Never Comes" film, we must grab the chances that Allah's given us to change for the better. And here, you're proudly proclaiming the so-called "wonderful" life as the best thing that can happen in your life. Don't you ever realize or think about how you will die? Are you going to die in time where you're doing good for Allah or vice versa? It'll surely make you think again when you want to do something. Well, it surely does make me think more about my death when I watch the film from ummahfilms.They sure have done a good and wonderful job in reminding us..Alhamdulillah.May Allah repays their deeds.
Next!!!
I want to talk about uniqueness. Just now during usrah, someone said," I've yet to know what's my uniqueness.So how to know what's unique in ourselves?" to the naqibah. Azimah said that actually sometimes we don't feel like we're unique, but then others can see the uniqueness in ourselves. I agree with you my friend!!So, my response was that I do believe that Allah's created every single person in this world with their own uniqueness. It's just a matter of time for us to discover it.And as for me, I reckon I'll just have to wait and search for it...I really do believe that I'll find it!! Insyallah...May the uniqueness that Allah's given us are being used to get us closer to the Creator.
In conclusion, today's posts are somewhat unorganized and yada yada...But the most important of all is not to be ignorant. Ignorance leads you away from Him and if you don't start to make any changes in yourself (our heart) as in to leave 'maksiat' in order to become better, Allah will not change you for the better as well.And yeah, ignorance is not "bliss".Once again,I'm no better than anyone.. I'm just a muslim who's still trying to find the eternal blessings from Allah.
p/s : This post serves as reminder for myself and others as well...InsyaAllah.
feeling nostalgic....i miss my old self
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