Friday, November 28, 2014

Nikmat

Assalamu'alaikum wr wbt,

It's been a while, and I miss writing already. 

Alhamdulillah for all the blessing that Allah has given us, including the greatest blessings of all which is iman & islam :)

Alhamdulillah for the ni'mah of aql and sound heart which differentiates us from His other creations. 

Alhamdulillah for the blessing of family, relatives, friends and acquaintances that we all get to meet to the point we die. 

Alhamdulillah for the blessing of nature, His creations surrounding us which have been blessing us with their grace of calmness and their constant rememberance of Allah. 

I've been wondering a lot. Today, (well technically last week), there's a new person joining our usrah. And another person left because she moved to other place. This dear sister made such an impact because her presence caused me  to have a lot of incredibly nostalgic moments. 

Its almost funny because the more I think about it, the more I can see the pattern that Allah might be wanting me to figure this out from the very beginning of my entire existence. 

Truth be told, I can see it clearer now. I used to have akhwati fillah whom I really consider as my supporting system back when I just started usrah here. And with the grace of Allah's plans, they moved to other states...

And then, come again another sister who I get along so well and was ready to "bergerak" alongside but then she had to do her posting elsewhere. 

And now, there's like this bunch of people that I've already beginning to feel in sync in this usrah :) Another two will be leaving to other states. 

SubhanaLlah, it's funny now that I think about it over and over again. It's like there's this hidden message that Allah have always wanted to show me, and it just give me chills and I just....:')

Truth be told, I am never ever a good person and I make a lot of mistakes that I repeatedly do. Hence, I always always always wonder why Allah grace me with presence of good people but now, I think I'm getting it slowly. 

Thankyou Allah, for always being so patient with this servant of yours. TabaarakaLlah :)

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Idealism

I'm still thinking,

What makes you hold onto the values?

What makes you confident about propagating 'em?

Why is it that some people claim that they want us to be and stay on the same boat, yet they don't give a heck when we fall out it?

I think I'm losing it. 

I lost reasons to stay, and to keep believing.  

Exactly what I thought before I got into a conversation with dearest lil sis. 

The only one out of two who can keep up with me, intellectually & emotionally. 

Thankyou God for this gift. 

Thankyou God for another opportunity. 

Thankyou God for everything. 

الحمد لله الذي هدانا لهذا وما كنا لنهتدي لولا أن هدانا الله

"Praise Allah who guided us to this. And we would have never sought guidance, unless he guided us."