World

Sporting a shy smile on her face, she said to me, "I wouldn't miss it for the world."

This is the girl, whose name was passed to me, weeks ago from somebody in INTEC. 

I admired her, since the day I contacted her. She's so eager, and full of hamasah. There's like an inexplicable "bond" between us. 

I didn't know what "bond" it may be. Maybe it's for the fact that we both converse in English when discussing about usrah and all...or maybe it was for the fact that we both share the same hobbies (reading books!!)...or of all things, I want to believe that we're connected through the eeman "bond". 

Ukhuwah, as defined by Banna, is relationship on the basis of eeman regardless of age, race, color et cetera..

Yeah, I'd like to believe just in that. 

:)

Reaching Out

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim :)

It feels good to converse with your ex-mutarobbi again. 

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. 

Having a pretty decent conversation, with ocassional laughter and teasing here and there I can sense you've changed (and me too, maybe). 

Even if we didn't see each other's faces, I can tell of how sincere we both are during the conversation we had. 

I am glad, for I felt for the first time, I talked with you and "looked" at you as a comrade. We talked, no longer in formality, which secretly made me grateful and relieved. 

We grow together on this road. You, definitely catching up on things faster than me and I can see how much you've grown and matured up. 

Dear ukht A, 

You have definitely become a better murobbiah and is doing a great job at that :) 

Believe in yourself that you can do things because you have potentials - a lot of 'em really-, and give all your love and care to your mutarobbi and the people around you. For, you are more than capable of doing so. 

It'd be wise to think less, and do more. Always do more, than just thinking what've might happened as long as those acts are giving hasanaat either to you or others :) 

Take care of yourself more, don't be so harsh on yourself. I'd say indulge yourself now and then, but it's up to you on how you'd like to do it. Cuz maybe by definition, we'd both translate it into different things altogether i.e., I'd indulge myself with reading books, and you could be indulging yourself with getting more involved in knowing your mutarobbi :P

I'd love to meet you face to face again, once you're back from the continent we met to this homeland. Those words that I can't utter during that conversation, Uhibbuki fillah aidhon ukht, I'd like to say that honestly from the bottom of my heart when I meet you later. 

Till then, take care my ex-mutarobbiah who I can now call my murobbiah. 

;)

Runaway Trip

Mom, dad, uncle and sis just came back from umrah few days ago.

And they were telling of their trip while doing their ibadah there. 

One thing, particularly, caught my attention. The story of the Hira' cave. 

Of how tall, and insurmountable it is. 

And deep inside, I wonder how did Rasulullah felt when he went there to seek for peace from all the jahiliyyah going down there in Mecca. 

Truthfully,

If you know me well, I am that kind of person who gets terribly exhausted by socializing. 

In a month, I will always have that need to spend time for myself. Alone...

And now, more than ever, all I wanted is:

To ride a train.

Have a cup of mocha or latte. 

While reading Qur'an or a book at that. 

Kinda like this, I'd like to think.