It's a great thing actually, to read back your previous written post and all of a sudden, you're reminded again.
"Whatever you decide to do with your life, it’s going to be really, really complicated.
Science and technology is complicated. History and politics is complicated. People are complicated. Figuring out how to be happy, and do simple things like take care of our kids and maintain friendships and relationships, is complicated.
Society is investing in you so that you can help solve the many challenges we are going to face in the coming decades, from profound technological challenges to helping people with the old age, to searchinb for human happiness and meaning."
I found this written waaaaay back in 2014.
Now, I'm struggling so hard that when I read 'em again, I almost choked up on the words.
Who knew...who knew indeed. It gets me back on track. My intention, first and foremost.
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I am always struggling to make sense of things, for I'm not that great at all at adapting and adjusting.
I too, cannot stop myself from analyzing every single thing that happens. I want to know the reason(s) behind actions, reactions and existence.
A lot of times, I feel myself detaching to understand all of these.
For once and for all, I really really want to connect the dots and start making sense.
People always had it on me that I "know" stuffs, but truth is I am learning too. I do not know a lot of things, and I probably will still do not know about 'em till the day I die.
Somewhere on the web someone wrote,
"When given enough time to contemplate it, I feel like a square peg trying to fit into an unchangeable round hole. This feeling on an existential level that there is no role for me in this drama of life that is unfolding."
This is actually how myself work. Which I don't quite understand as well.
Alas, it's exciting to know and understand more about the very existence of ourselves, with what we could've done to serve our purpose to God. Don't you think?
وَإِذْ قَالَ رَبُّكَ لِلْمَلَائِكَةِ إِنِّي جَاعِلٌ فِي الْأَرْضِ خَلِيفَةً ۖ قَالُوا أَتَجْعَلُ فِيهَا مَن يُفْسِدُ فِيهَا وَيَسْفِكُ الدِّمَاءَ وَنَحْنُ نُسَبِّحُ بِحَمْدِكَ وَنُقَدِّسُ لَكَ ۖ قَالَ إِنِّي أَعْلَمُ مَا لَا تَعْلَمُونَ
(Al-Baqarah 2:30)
وَمَا خَلَقْتُ الْجِنَّ وَالْإِنسَ إِلَّا لِيَعْبُدُونِ
(Ad-Dzariyat 51:56)
