Nikmat

Assalamu'alaikum wr wbt,

It's been a while, and I miss writing already. 

Alhamdulillah for all the blessing that Allah has given us, including the greatest blessings of all which is iman & islam :)

Alhamdulillah for the ni'mah of aql and sound heart which differentiates us from His other creations. 

Alhamdulillah for the blessing of family, relatives, friends and acquaintances that we all get to meet to the point we die. 

Alhamdulillah for the blessing of nature, His creations surrounding us which have been blessing us with their grace of calmness and their constant rememberance of Allah. 

I've been wondering a lot. Today, (well technically last week), there's a new person joining our usrah. And another person left because she moved to other place. This dear sister made such an impact because her presence caused me  to have a lot of incredibly nostalgic moments. 

Its almost funny because the more I think about it, the more I can see the pattern that Allah might be wanting me to figure this out from the very beginning of my entire existence. 

Truth be told, I can see it clearer now. I used to have akhwati fillah whom I really consider as my supporting system back when I just started usrah here. And with the grace of Allah's plans, they moved to other states...

And then, come again another sister who I get along so well and was ready to "bergerak" alongside but then she had to do her posting elsewhere. 

And now, there's like this bunch of people that I've already beginning to feel in sync in this usrah :) Another two will be leaving to other states. 

SubhanaLlah, it's funny now that I think about it over and over again. It's like there's this hidden message that Allah have always wanted to show me, and it just give me chills and I just....:')

Truth be told, I am never ever a good person and I make a lot of mistakes that I repeatedly do. Hence, I always always always wonder why Allah grace me with presence of good people but now, I think I'm getting it slowly. 

Thankyou Allah, for always being so patient with this servant of yours. TabaarakaLlah :)

Idealism

I'm still thinking,

What makes you hold onto the values?

What makes you confident about propagating 'em?

Why is it that some people claim that they want us to be and stay on the same boat, yet they don't give a heck when we fall out it?

I think I'm losing it. 

I lost reasons to stay, and to keep believing.  

Exactly what I thought before I got into a conversation with dearest lil sis. 

The only one out of two who can keep up with me, intellectually & emotionally. 

Thankyou God for this gift. 

Thankyou God for another opportunity. 

Thankyou God for everything. 

الحمد لله الذي هدانا لهذا وما كنا لنهتدي لولا أن هدانا الله

"Praise Allah who guided us to this. And we would have never sought guidance, unless he guided us." 

Contengan Jalanan

Assalamu'alaikum wr wbt,

Pertama-tamanya nak disklaimer yang post ni bukan berkenaan buku "Contengan Jalanan" tulisan Hlovate. 

InshaAllah kali ni ambil mood selepas bedah sedikit bahan dalam buku yang baru dibeli. Nama buku? Ah biarlah rahsia. 

TabaarakaLlah (segala puji-pujian dan nikmat dikembalikan kepada Allah) I've been going through such a monumental phase. 

I want to sincerely admit that for the first time ever, I felt "alive" again. 

Alhamdulillah setelah bertukar usrah dan naqibah juga baru-baru ini, aku menemui semula sinar sinar yang dahulunya seakan malap. 

Bagi aku, usrah yang konsisten sangat memberi peranan yang penting untuk keep up dengan pentarbiyahan anak-anak usrah. Dan dalam menyirami iman yang senang saja turun dan naik, memang sangat perlu kepada orang-orang yang akan memberi peringatan-peringatan yang baik kepada kita secara fizikalnya. 

Walaupun juga mungkin ada aktiviti-aktiviti lain seperti daurah, rehlah, jaulah, qiyamullail secara berjama'ah dan yang seangkatan dengannya, bagi aku usrah itu tetap relevan untuk diadakan dengan konsisten. In shaa Allah. 

Kerana sepanjang usrah, di waktu itulah seorang murabbi dapat berinteraksi secara personal dengan anak-anak usrahnya. Dan sewaktu itu juga lah, anak usrah dapat menyelami dan merasai nikmat bertilawah bersama, mentadabbur ayat-ayat Al Quran (my fav!) dan juga sharing & berdiskusi persoalan-persoalan yang berlegar di fikiran bersama-sama ahli usrah yang lain. 

Ah itulah salah satu nikmatnya!

Alhamdulillah usrah yang baru ini terdirinya daripada golongan belia seperti diriku ini tetapi kebanyakan mereka sudahpun berkahwin, malah sudah punya anak. Tapi, tentunya tiada masalah kerana dalam usrah ini, semuanya nak sama-sama belajar :)

Alhamdulillah wa subhanallah, tersangat bersyukur kepada Allah kerana baru-baru ini ada seorang kenalan dari US turut serta dalam usrahku. 

Langsung aku mengkagumi dia sesampainya dia di usrah kerana dia membawa anaknya yang baruan lahir! Baru 4 bulan sihh~ 

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Tapi sekarang aku masih cuba mengerti posisi aku sebagai seorang yang mengikuti dakwah dan tarbiyah untuk hidup bersama masyarakat. Hidup bersama mereka di tempat kerja, ahli keluarga dan sanak saudara di rumah dan di kampung dan begitulah...

Bagaimana mendekati orang-orang sekeliling yang struggle dengan permasalahan mereka seperti kemiskinan, disabilities dari segi kesihatan dll, masalah depresi, dan sebagainya. 

Bagi aku, terkadang kita manusia begitu senang sekali memberi "label" kepada sekian golongan manusia. Dia ini begitu begini dsb. Walhal kita belum cuba mendekatinya...memahami perihalnya. 

Belum pun cuba bercakap dalam "bahasanya". Gi mana deh mahu menyentuh hati mereka jikalau kita bercakap dalam jargon bahasa Arab sahaja? Atau ber'ana' 'enta' semata?  

Dan juga mungkin sebab itulah ada yang susah mahu menerima ajakan kita ataupun takut untuk approach kita. 

Terkadang aku juga masih pikirin gimana jua dakwah dan tarbiyah di bumi US sana. Langsung tidak dengar khabarnya lagi...Terus terang, aku masih rindu dengan tanah Uncle Sam itu. Tambahan di bumi Columbus. Bagaimana ya sahabat sahabat seperjuangan di sana? Ah semuanya kenangan. 

Terkadang aku juga terpikir apakah bermaksud kalau kita tidak punya status (atau dalam bahasa DnT:mustawa) bermaksud kita masih belum bersedia melakukan amal-amal seperti yang begitu begini? 

Kerana sudah tentu, ada sahaja yang masih berfikiran sepertinya, cumanya mungkin sahaja ya, hal ini belum disuarakan, lalu menyebabkan para du'at masih punya banyak masa untuk dibazirkan membuat itu dan ini. 

Terkadang ya, aku juga mengaku, tidak punya "binaan" atau medan itu boleh menjadi penyebab dalam melumpuhkan dan memfuturkan seorang dai'e. Lihat saja diri sendiri ini. 

Adeh, masih punya banyak waktu meng"update" blog, twitter, facebook dan sebagainya. Err terkadang bisa gila. 

Kerana apa? Kerana dah tahu yang "Al-waajibat akthar minal awqat" (Kerja kerja lebih banyak daripada masa yang ada). 

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Begitulah persis seorang insan yang sentiasa ligat otaknya. Tentu saja ada hal yang difikirkan. 

Jika pemikirannya tidak disibukkan dengan perancangan-perancangan memacu ummah, sudah pasti pemikirannya akan disibukkan dengan hal-hal yang lain. 

Wallahua'lam. Segala coretan adalah untuk tujuan muhasabah diri terutamanya. 

Fight It!

Kesabaran dalam ketaatan. 

Susahnyaaa...kan?

Tapi sebab tu jugaklah banyak kali Allah sebut dalam Qur'an yang orang sabar akan dapat ganjaran syurga. 

Dan tadi, dalam usrah baru tadabbur balik surah Ad-Dhuha. 

Rasa macam U_U Allah tengah pujuk balik diri ni. 

Y'know, there are times when we're left in despair and falls into depression. 

Ye, orang yang join usrah pun mengalami depression kay..I used to think it wasn't that possible. Ya know, since we're all been talking bout God and all. 

But bam, one day it happened to you it just rendered you speechless. Kau rasa macam kau dah tak berdaya nak buat apa. Kau rasa macam struggle sangat nak terus buat baik setiap saat TT___TT

Depression aside, surah Dhuha ni kalau tadabbur waktu tengah down, memang sangat boleh fefeeling habis. Dan sangat boleh membuatkan kita rasa sebak, terharu, meleleh air mata dan seterusnya. 

Sebabnya kalau kita go through surah ni, daripada asbabun nuzul (sebab2 penurunan) sampailah ke tafsir setiap ayat, kita dapat merasa macamana keadaan Rasulullah saw pada waktu tu~! The emptiness he felt and how much He's in need of Allah's comforting words. 

Seriyesly speaking, it takes real and raw strength to deal with yourself when you're feeling like super down. Y'know, that feeling of unworthiness and being an utmost failure which sometimes leaves you wondering if you want to end your life like this. Nauzubillah...

I think I slightly understand people who had it rough, who somehow fell into deep sh*t situation they don't even know where to turn to. 

First thing I'd say, get a grip on yourself and don't forget to find God everyday. Remember God, do your own things out of Love to Him, don't stop seek Him for all you care. 

Make yourself busy with rememberance of God, make those self-inflicted negative comments to stop! Stop saying to yourself that you're ugly, not making any contribution, stupid or anything of the likes. 

Love yourself, love yourself, love yourself as you are one of the precious gems that God has created on this Earth. 

Try reaching to others, even if its that one person you've always been contacting. He/she would've love to help. Even if sometimes there's doubt that he/she'll understand you, just try. Cuz for all you know, you are actually in need of comfort from others. 

You can make winds of change, if you make effort for it. Just don't dwell on the depression puddle or hole any longer. 

You'll win the fight inshaAllah :) :)

#personal

Someone Who Knows You

There's always time when we (or rather, I) want to tell others how I like things or dislike things or how I am reallyyyy am or how they should understand us (me) this or that way. 

But truth is, as much as you want to tell others about yourself, they won't get it. Or they won't be able to understand you, as much as Allah and yourself know you :')

To be honest, sometimes I get overwhelmed by just thinking about certain things about others. And how I really really want others to take notice. 

But as one of my previous mad'u have shared, "We're actually alone in this world. There's us. And then, there's God." No one in between.

Though one can argue that, you know, we've got families, and friends, and lovers and our beloveds too in this world that act as our companions. I'll never refute that, ever because I've met many people who are willing to support me when I'm having troubles. Who are too kind sometimes. 

But, just think about it. How many times do we wish they would've understand and help us better? When we're out of everything possible to answer it, we'll know for sure that in the end, it's Allah that has been there for us all along subhanaLlah :)

Sometimes there are times, I'd be having rough times and I just wish that I can find someone to talk with. Not just talk to. 

But having been independent & socially awkward, lots of time, I have trouble expressing it to others because I'd end up telling things that might've come across as dangerous to them.

One of my akhwat said, it'd help a lot if you talk to Allah a lot. And I am sincerely believing that's the true case. 

Goodness gracious, I am ready to move on. And start a new chapter. And maybe put on a new thinking hat, with better personality. 

Beauty

There's this certain beauty to those people who have pure hearts. 

Hearts that goes out purely in obedience to God.

Hearts that cries whenever it does something out of God's wrath. 

Heart that always sees good in others. 

A heart of a muslim who continuously invites people to know more of the Creator. 

A heart free of envy, 

Of judgment,

Yet full of everything that conveys its love to that One creator. 

Simply said, qalbun saleem. 

:)

Aspirations

There are times when I think everything is possible. 

It's like the world is limitless. Like, nothing can ever stop me. 

Except for Allah, that is. 

Yet now, I always managed to find myself on the end of pessimism. Another reason why I don't like putting too much thought on an issue when I actually can just do it on a whim. 

Sometimes, I still find myself at the moment still afloat. Trying to fulfilling my purpose of life while at the same time wondering how. 

Sometimes, this world feels so surreal. Like the happiness, sadness, families, and friends that I have is just "there" for a moment. And then, they're gone. 

I'll never know if there are others who felt the same way, but I truly hope if there were to be one, we can both come to term that this world is indeed, a pit stop. 

For a wayfarer, like me. Like every single human on this earth. 

"Kun fiddunya ka annaka ghariibun"

Be in this world as though you're a wayfarer. 

I aspire to do what my heart tells me, yet at times I need to face the wall of reality. 

The reality hits me like a brick, with a full force speed. 

When I yearn for a step further, it harshly push me to square one. 

It's not like I am giving up. I am just stating its fact from what I've been through. 

And the struggle gets ever so hard. So hard sometimes it can crush you. 

If only not for God and good company, I would've crumbled to the pressure. 

It's not like I've never been at the bottom ever. The course goes up and down and static maybe. There will be tidal waves crashing on you, whether to bring you up...or down. 

"Wakafaa biLlahi wakeela"

Stances

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim...

Although I'd love to write about things that I dearly hold onto for the past few years, I've come to term that maybe, just maybe, there isn't much left here about that since I haven't been keeping tab on it and was left out of touch. 

The metaphor's just like an Arabic saying,

"Faaqidu as-syai' laa yu'tih"

 You can't give something that you don't have. 

And with that, I rest my case...

On the other hand, I do really want to write about stances. 

Stance - noun. A mental or emotional position adopted with respect to something. 

As I pass through the days of adulthood, I've come to realize that many of the things I used to think can be actually perceived in various perspectives. Its like I can see the crossroads in life, and how they may cross paths with each other or will never ever cross paths again. 

Things do not actually fall directly into black and white area. They can fall off into the grey ones, blue or yellow or even red maybe. There are no right or wrong things of doing things (unless if it goes against the syariah). 

Those stands that I used to have about certain things are slowly changing. Changing in accordance to these experiences that are shaping me mostly at this stage of growing up. 

Where I am slowly becoming more receptive to my surroundings. Where I get to feel very indecisive about things, and where I use my thought process the most. 

It's ever changing nature that slowly builds you into someone you yourself are surprised with. 

Learning and embracing that it's okay to do this and that with mistakes. Knowing about yourself more than ever before. Knowing that it is okay to have disagreement with others provided that you can show respect and embrace his/her views too without having to condone. Getting to know to others without holding self back too much anymore. Knowing what you yourself like and dislike and your preferences in life i.e., liking to know the big picture before anything else, disliking people who have anger management, liking to backpacking, disliking surprises, wanting to be humanitarian above all and things like that...you know?

It's after all a journey to self-discovery. 

Deep inside, it feels like you can see the way where you want yourself to be. 

And of course, at the end of the journey, you want to be in Jannah no matter what (if you're a Muslim that is). 

I know what it feels like to be 'in' and what it feels like on the outside. When you finally get thrown into both worlds, you get to be more emphatic because now, you already know how this side works and how the other side works. 

I've had my fair share of skepticism, hence I'd love to finesse the stances that I've had and are still having into something much more mature. 

Of all things, I dearly hope and want to be that connecting bridge. Between the two worlds. 

LBNL, I just want to say that alhamdulillah, I love getting old. I love all the experiences that Allah's given me so far, and I couldn't ask for more. Because those experiences are nurturing me into my future self that I can't wait to meet ! InshaAllah towards a better dai'e, muslimah and person inside out. 

Nobody

Nobody would like to gain losses right?

What if I told you even if we thought we've already did lots of good deeds, they can come down to nothing ?

Well they can. 

If you follow the deeds with riya'. 

Allahu...

Am seriously envying those people who can do good deeds with sincerity and niat solely for Allah. 

Those who can do lots of amal without even telling people,

"Hey, I do this and that"

Gosh, I would kill to be the unsung hero. 

The one who's "behind the scene" kind of people. 

Khalis

"Buatlah dakwah bukan kerana orang."

It hit home hard. 

Cryptic code from Allah, truly. 

'Allimni

Entah. 

Pertama kali berjumpa bfg usa di program daerah.  

Nikmatnya, hanya Tuhan yang tahu. 

Entah. 

Pertama kali bertemu al-akh yang dihormati yang punya pendirian yang sama. 

Engkau tahu, apa perasaannya bila mahu ditakwin tapi hanya disantuni dengan tarbiyah yang on off?

Peritnya, hanya Tuhan yang tahu. 

Entah. 

Bilamana ibu bapa dapat menjadi pendokong dakwah, adik-beradik juga sama-sama berjuang di medan ini. Walau aslannya bukanlah keluarga ikh akh pun.

Nikmatnya, subhanaLlah hanya Dia yang mengetahui. 

Perit dan nikmat ini, Allah...Engkau mengajarkan aku perasaan perasaan begini di dalam jalan dakwah dan tarbiyah. 

Semoga aku lebih bersyukur dan ikhlas. 

Semoga..

Semoga...

World

Sporting a shy smile on her face, she said to me, "I wouldn't miss it for the world."

This is the girl, whose name was passed to me, weeks ago from somebody in INTEC. 

I admired her, since the day I contacted her. She's so eager, and full of hamasah. There's like an inexplicable "bond" between us. 

I didn't know what "bond" it may be. Maybe it's for the fact that we both converse in English when discussing about usrah and all...or maybe it was for the fact that we both share the same hobbies (reading books!!)...or of all things, I want to believe that we're connected through the eeman "bond". 

Ukhuwah, as defined by Banna, is relationship on the basis of eeman regardless of age, race, color et cetera..

Yeah, I'd like to believe just in that. 

:)

Reaching Out

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim :)

It feels good to converse with your ex-mutarobbi again. 

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. 

Having a pretty decent conversation, with ocassional laughter and teasing here and there I can sense you've changed (and me too, maybe). 

Even if we didn't see each other's faces, I can tell of how sincere we both are during the conversation we had. 

I am glad, for I felt for the first time, I talked with you and "looked" at you as a comrade. We talked, no longer in formality, which secretly made me grateful and relieved. 

We grow together on this road. You, definitely catching up on things faster than me and I can see how much you've grown and matured up. 

Dear ukht A, 

You have definitely become a better murobbiah and is doing a great job at that :) 

Believe in yourself that you can do things because you have potentials - a lot of 'em really-, and give all your love and care to your mutarobbi and the people around you. For, you are more than capable of doing so. 

It'd be wise to think less, and do more. Always do more, than just thinking what've might happened as long as those acts are giving hasanaat either to you or others :) 

Take care of yourself more, don't be so harsh on yourself. I'd say indulge yourself now and then, but it's up to you on how you'd like to do it. Cuz maybe by definition, we'd both translate it into different things altogether i.e., I'd indulge myself with reading books, and you could be indulging yourself with getting more involved in knowing your mutarobbi :P

I'd love to meet you face to face again, once you're back from the continent we met to this homeland. Those words that I can't utter during that conversation, Uhibbuki fillah aidhon ukht, I'd like to say that honestly from the bottom of my heart when I meet you later. 

Till then, take care my ex-mutarobbiah who I can now call my murobbiah. 

;)

Runaway Trip

Mom, dad, uncle and sis just came back from umrah few days ago.

And they were telling of their trip while doing their ibadah there. 

One thing, particularly, caught my attention. The story of the Hira' cave. 

Of how tall, and insurmountable it is. 

And deep inside, I wonder how did Rasulullah felt when he went there to seek for peace from all the jahiliyyah going down there in Mecca. 

Truthfully,

If you know me well, I am that kind of person who gets terribly exhausted by socializing. 

In a month, I will always have that need to spend time for myself. Alone...

And now, more than ever, all I wanted is:

To ride a train.

Have a cup of mocha or latte. 

While reading Qur'an or a book at that. 

Kinda like this, I'd like to think. 

Hakikatnya..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Ah, sungguh terasa sudah lama tak menulis dari hati. InshaAllah, kali ini akan cuba istiqomah menulis dari hati sehinggalah ke akhir post.

Bukan apa, tapi sangat terasa nak berkongsi tentang pengalaman-pengalaman di tempat kerja yang mana kebanyakan daripada adik-adik yang bakal pulang ke Malaysia akan bekerja nanti. Ehe, lambatnya kan post ? :p

Anywho, pertama-tamanya alhamdulillah Allah tempatkan diri ini di tempat yang sebaiknya alhamdulillah. Allah Maha Mengetahui :) Dan sungguh, tempat kerja  ni bukanlah dikelilingi oleh ikhwah akhwat (walaupun saya tahu, kebanyakannya kalau boleh nak kerja dalam persekitaran begitu, kan?)

Tapi serius, dalam mendepani rakan sekerja kita yang bukan ikhwah akhwat, kita akan sangaaaat banyak belajar tentang masyarakat kita. Dan semestinya, kita akan belajar cemana nak apply segala teori yang diwar-warlan dalam usrah, daurah dan segala macamnya lagi. He he

First thing, kita akan bergaul dengan segala macam ragam manusia kat tempat kerja ni. Jangan terkejut kalau jumpa rakan sekerja yang tak solat (ya, walaupun muslim), yang merokok (lepas buat kerja sikit kena merokok, bangun tido pun, terus cari rokok..erk) ataupun yang stail suka bercakap di belakang, cakap berbelit, suka mencarut, suka mengadu >.< dll. Ni tak kira politik di tempat kerja lagi...

Di sinilah pentingnya anda yang mengaku telah mengikut tarbiyah untuk menunjukkan akhlak yang baik terhadap rakan sekerja anda. 

Cuba sebaik mungkin untuk tak tunjuk muka disgusted, mahupun bersikap tidak sabar terhadap mereka. Sentiasa cuba keep them in good company (dalam diam cuba muayashah). In shaa Allah, Allah akan mudahkan in shaa Allah. 

Seterusnya, ingatlah yang setiap manusia ni memang fitrah dia sukakan kebaikan :) Contohnya di tempat kerja saya,

A selalu merokok, mencarut dan selalu tinggal solat tapiii dia sangat menjaga hubungan antara lelaki dan perempuan. Katanya malu *-*

Woah, saya pun terasa terkejut O__O! But, hey that's what makes human beautiful :') Allahu kalau saja dia berkawan dengan kawan-kawan yang baik & juga dibimbing ke arah kebaikan, dia boleh jadi lagi baik daripada kita, kan?

Secondly, terus terang cakap...kita akan mudah terlarut dalam persekitaran kita. Provided, kalau kita tak kuat TDZ atau hilang radar. Atau jadi lemau walaupun masih dalam radar. Ala-ala faint signals gituuu~ Sangatlah senang nak futur, iman taktentu hala. Mutaba'ah amal ke mana...huhu.

Sebabnya kita akan spend masa kita paling kurang sehari 8jam di tempat kerja. Kalau kerja swasta macam saya, seminggu boleh jadi 56jam etlis spend masa di office saja. Oho, dan kita banyak bergaul dengan orang sekeliling kita sepanjang waktu tu, jadinya sangatlah affect diri kita wiwuwu. Allah sebaik-baik penolong, jadi sangat kena jaga hubungan dengan Allah tu. Penting ok!

Thirdly, (even though i tried really hard to deny this) anda akan terasa betapa anda sangat menjadi robot jika anda terlalu immersed dengan dunia bekerja. Setiap hari, mesti akan jadi rutin yang sama. 

Jadi kena cuba, cuba dan cuba sesungguh hati supaya tak jadi ROBOT ! Usrah seriyes jangan tinggal, ada masa nak sibukkan diri dengan hal keluarga atau program atau daurah, silakan sila. Balancekan hal ukhrawi dan duniawi inshaAllah. 

Lastly, anda kena ingat yang ini adalah medan amal sebenar. Di sinilah anda kena mengeluarkan segala skill manusiawi & pengalaman-pengalaman yang anda ada. Sebab apa?

Anda tak boleh bercakap terus tentang tafsir dengan dia. Anda takkan boleh nasihat dia straight tentang hukum itu ini dan terus quote ayat qur'an =_=" 

Kalau yang dapat kena supervise pekerja-pekerja lelaki yang banyak macam saya, anda takboleh nak direct approach kalau anda malumalu (macam saya :p) atau awkward awkward (macam saya jugak :p)

Saya masih ingat, Ust Atep pernah berpesan waktu daurah BFG, 

"nanti kat padang mahsyar, firstly Allah akan tanya awak tentang amal awak dengan orang-orang yang bergaul dengan awak seharian. lepastu barula dia tanya tentang amal awak dalam usrah, daurah etc"

Ala-ala begitulah katanya. Hah, terkejut tak? 

InshaAllah sangat memerlukan para da'ie wa dai'eyah untuk sama-sama menongkah arus perubahan dalam masyarakat kita (Islam, terutamanya) bilhikmah inshaAllah. 

Allahul musta'an !

Kepada para BFGs, selamat pulang ke Malaysia ! Kami tak sabar menunggu antum untuk sedia berkhidmat (:

Cuma

Cuma satu katanya,

****, jangan leka. 

Sentap. Sungguh. 

Mas Alah

Mas Alah 

Terlalu bergantung dengan semangat. 

Payah sangat deal dengan diri yang terlalu independent terkadang. 

Bukan "perfectionist" tapi senang terganggu (baca : distracted) dengan benda-benda kecil. 

Tak reti nak cakap panjang, tak reti nak elaborate huhhhhh

Kurang faham jika orang bercakap guna teka-teki atau sarcasm. Jenis kena cakap stret to da point. 

Orang paling kurang emosi dan empati dalam duniaaaaaa.

Mungkin juga narsistik. 

Allahu, semoga diperindahkan dengan akhlak yang baik. Kata nak matinul khuluq?

Kenalah mujahadah extra, ya dak? 

Fikir Panjang

Mutaakhir ini, rasa teringat sangat sangat sangat dengan yang di sana. Taktahu kenapa, tapi aku diamkan sahaja.

Malas layan perasaan. Nanti dikatakan pula, "asyik terkenang yang di sana"...Takdapat nak let go...

Tapi, akhirnya dapat juga ku bersua di alam maya. Dan ternyata, perasaan resah itu ada hikmahnya. Lalu aku jadi kaget seketika. 

Ahh benarlah hadis tentang mukmin yang mafhumnya, orang mukmin itu ibarat satu jasad. Pabila satu bahagian ini disakiti, yang lain juga ternyata akan merasa kesakitannya !

Masih terngiang-ngiang kata-kata seorang ukht sewaktu berkongsi pengisian, katanya kalau Allah ilhamkan kita teringat dengan sahabat-sahabat kita (ikhwah akhowat), mungkin saja orang itu sangat memerlukan doa kita. 

Bukankah kita dipesan untuk mendoakan saudara seislam kita setiap kali selepas solat? Aku, sungguh aku lupa...barangkali terlalu asyik mendoakan untuk diri sendiri sahaja...

Saban hari bila memikirkan, aku jadi cemburu. Ya, aku jadi cemburu banget. 

Ternyata ujian Allah itu tampak hebat dan diuji untuk mukmin yang hebat-hebat jua. Aku ini, apa saja ujiannya? Ujian dengan diri sendiri. Hmm

Terus, aku jadi sedih juga cemburu amat. Kerna nampak sangat status aku di mana...kerna ujian aku begitu-begitu saja di sini :( :(

Dan beberapa hari yang lalu, aku menyemak kembali buku Taushiyah untuk Aktivis Islam. Beberapa mutiara yang buat aku rasa sebak...

" Akhi, aktivis islam, ketahuilah anda akan merasakan kelelahan luarbiasa dan mendapatkan cobaan demi cobaan saat berjalan di jalan kebenaran dan berkiprah di aktivitas untuk Islam. Tapi jika anda tegar di atas kebenaran dan bersabar menghadapi cobaan, maka penderitaan sirna, kelelahan hilang dan yang tersisa adalah pahala bagi anda, insyaAllah."

"Ketika anda menginjakkan kaki di syurga, saat itu pula segala kelelahan yang anda pernah rasakan, duka yang dulu mendera anda, dan luka yang anda alami di jalan Allah Ta'ala sirna seketika."

"Akhi, aktivis Islam, anda harus meningkatkan kesabaran, dengan cara menyiapkan jiwa anda untuk bersabar, nescaya jiwa anda bersabar pada suatu waktu, bahkan menjadi jiwa yang ridha, insyaAllah."

Ikhwah wa akhawat fillah, aku di sini sentiasa akan mengingatkan diriku untuk mendoakan antum. Aku rindu nak melihat muka-muka antum, bersama-sama bertebaran bersama antum di dunia ini dan di syurga kelak, insyaAllah. 

Random note:

Aku tak tahu kenapa nak tulis random note ini, tapi aku mengharapkan yang membaca dapat baca between the lines. 

Ada seorang akh yang aku hormati pernah bertanya,

"Apa maksud awak, fikrah dia lain?"

DFTBA (Just Kidding, Really)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

In the name of Allah The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful...

Satu mesej diterima,

"Malam ni kita ada katibah dekat _____ ya. Sapa boleh mai?"

Dalam hati,

"Uhhh nak gi sangatsangat, tapi tempat tu taktau pulak kat mana. Dahtu kerja malam ni habih pukul 9pm. Esok kena masuk awal pagi." .____.

Cuba cuba reasoning balik. 

"InshaAllah saya mai, tapi lambat tak apa ka kak S?"

Bunyi mesej baru. *Tingting*

"Ok, takpa ja."

Last-last ambil keputusan tebalkan muka mintak workmate lukis peta. Sebabnya cuba cari alamat dalam Google Map, tak dapat locate. 

Tudiaa nak kata terlalu bergantung dengan GPS. 

Dalam hati, berdebar-debar. Sangat. 

First time nak drive jauh (kot), takda teman sebelah. Malam pulak tu. 

Mata tertumpu dekat jam punch card. Lagi 3 minit nak pukul 9. 

Getus dalam hati,

"InshaAllah, ok ja ni. Allah kan ada, N"

Keluar office. Isi air dalam botol, pi washroom nak keep self distracted. 

Masuk balik office, jam punch card tepat pukul 9:00 PM. Terus punch card, berlari anak ke kereta.

Make sure semua benda ada & semua selamat, start enjin. 

Vroom vroom...

"Boleh cam ka jalan-jalan yang kawan cerita dalam peta tadi niiii...Malam malam camni"

Ok. Keep calm and keep driving. 

Jalan semua dah tak kenal, pakat agak & redah. Akhirnya jumpa jalan kecik ke tempat tu. 

Subhanallah walhamdulillah wa laa ilaaha illaLlah waLlahu akbar !

Jumpa juga tempatnya. Tanggalkan kasut, buat muka tak malu masuk lambat. Pastu duduk belakang. 

Tengok depan, ada seorang pakcik cakap Arab dan ada seorang translator. Muslimah pula tu :)

Tengok tajuk kat slide, 

زينب الغزلي

Ok, rupanya dapat taujih (pengisian) tentang dia. 

Siapa sangka, dahla tak pernah baca pun buku Zainab Al-Ghazzali tu, tapi subhanaLlah Allah bagi peluang tau kisah hidup dia melalui penceritaan sheikh dari Mesir ni?

Dan siapa sangka pernah ada seorang wanita muslimah macam dia zaman ni? 

Quote daripada sheikh,

"Dia punya keinginan yang kuat, semangat yang tinggi, semangat jihad seperti seorang lelaki."

Best part is, bila sheikh cerita macamana ayah dia didik dia :)

Ayah dia pesan kat dia waktu dia kecik-kecik,

"Zainab, you're not like your other friends (her same age friends). You've got great responsibilities ahead of you, you'll be making a revolution to help islam rise again."

(Lebih kurang macam tu la pesan ayah dia)

Nampak takkk? Ayah dia tanamkan keinginan/obsesi & harapan kat anak dia untuk naikkan khilafah islamiyah balik. 

Cuba ingat siapa lagi tokoh yang femes buat camni?

Ya betul, mak sultan Muhammad Al-Fatih. 

And the recent ones, ibu bapa Ammar. 

Tarbiyah yang start dari rumah always always always leave great impacts on children. Serius ! 

Ok, taktau la apa point post kali ni. Merepek barangkali. 

Tapi, tapi nak cakap satu point paling suka yang sheikh sebut malam tu. 

Which is, ثورة فكرية. Bermaksud "Revolusi Pemikiran". 

Agak-agak kenapa point ni termasuk dalam taujih ni?

Bersambung...eh. 

InshaAllah. 

Immature

This, coming from me. The infamous immature me.

Truthfully, deep down inside I terribly terribly miss being a murobbiah...

I miss all the mujahadah I used to have back in the States.

Now I think I'm just not at that par...

Sluggish, lazy, manjaaaaaaa hrmmm

Sounds pathetic, no?

I ask of Allah to grant me whatever is good for me & make me a better fighter for Islam...

And I ask of Allah to forgive me for my ever existing weakness...

Coincidence

Is it really?

I think...Nah, not a million years cuz Allah has planned everything, laid out every single plans for us :)

Just now (well, technically yesterday), two sisters from different continents whatsapp-ed me a picture of them with one of my sisters, in Ireland and USA, respectively. Geddit? 

In one day, one ukht from USA snapped a pic of her with my sis over there. And on the same day (maybe, at the same time, God knows), one ukht took a pic with my sister in Ireland. 

Subhanallah, can I even call this coincidence?

Well, I say not !

Not a clue what Allah is trying to tell me right now. But inshaAllah I am definitely am trying to decipher the hikmah, still. 

Anyway, may Allah grant us steadfastness on this road...ameen ya Rabb !

                     Partayy in the USA (just kidding :p)

                    Daurah @ the BEST masjid in USA

        Daurah in IRELAND ! 

Overwhelmed

Do you have a heart? Don't tell lies. Everyone does have a heart. Now ask yourself this question: "How is my heart doing? Is he fine? Or, is she fine?" Or do you need another question? Or do you need to ask somebody else about the condition of your heart? Need not! Because only you know, how well is your heart.

Sometimes it makes me ponder by just looking at the leaves. The one that is so green, fresh and alive. I ask myself a question: "Am I similar to that leaves? Or the one that falls off the ground? The one that people walk on."

Silence.

Now I ask you a question. What do you feel when looking at the leaves? Or you cannot relate it to your life? Why am I comparing lives with leaves? What is the significance?

See, leaves, they are very strong. They stick to the branches of the trees. Come down rain nor strong wind, they stick! Unless it is already the time for them to let it go, they let it go. When leaves die, they becomes detached and gust will flew them anywhere. As time goes by, the leaves starts to dry. Or they even actually dried since they were at the branches, thus making them fall down, sucked by gravity. And later, when the leaves turned brown, they start to be able crack, making a crunchy sound when crushed. And do you know what happens next? They got burned! Once becoming too dry, they are simply lighted, leaving dust and soot.

Now, the same goes to your heart, my heart, our heart! Once it dries, it becomes dead. And a dead heart goes to that one place I'd rather not say. Question is, how does it becomes dead? Possibly when we have too much entertainment, being too far from the right track, disobeying what we're ought to do, ignoring our parents and most importantly, forgetting our Creator. Get that?

Think!

Now close your eyes, relax yourself and look deep into your heart. Search for your heart. Do you find it? Do you find your heart? Keep looking, until you find it. Is it nothing you see but pitch black? Probably too much darkness has resides in your heart, making it impenetrable even by light. First, you need to remove that blanket of darkness which has enveloped your heart.

Think! Think of all the bad deeds you've made. As much as you can remember. Do it! Picture it as if you are watching a movie of yourself doing the awful things. Then, what do you feel about it? Do you feel bad? Do you regret it? Let go of your feelings, your emotions, let go of your tears.

Do you think it's worth it of doing it? What would people think if they see you doing this in front of them? Do you want to stop doing it? And in the future, do you want to repeat these mistakes? Aren't you tired of doing this? Yes? It is yes?

Open your eyes slowly.

See the light that enters your eyes. Imagine that as the light that just entered your heart. Outshining the darkness that has been residing in your heart for ages. And now, it's gone.

But beware! It will comes back. So you mustn't stop doing this. You mustn't stop repenting, for this is just the beginning to start a new. For a new end. No man, no matter how great shall know his own destiny.

And that destiny, is what you choose now!

"We humans, should never stop repenting for we sinned so long as the sun shines."

-a kopipes entry-

Taujih

Alhamdulillah, Allah beri kesempatan untuk melawat seorang ukht yang dah lamaaa saya nak pi rumah dia :)

Walaupun haritu praktikal di Seremban, dan rumah dia di Rembau..tapi nak katanya super bizi (err taktau le buat apo kat Somban tu haa bizi sangat) memang tak terpergi jugak. 

Tapi subhanaLlah harini, akhirnya dapat juga pergi rumah dia, sekali dengan mak & abah saya pergi melawat dia:)

Daripada ziarah itu, saya belajar dan dapat observe banyaaak sangat. Sebabnya dapat jumpa mak dan ayah ukht ni, dan juga adik-beradik dia jadi dapat lihat macamana suasana rumah dia dan interaksi mereka. 

I personally treasure the moments at her house. Because now I truly understand her hardship, struggles and difficulties. What's her tests to stay tsabat. 

Apparently my parents and her parents clicked cuz somehow Allah gave them this mysterious chemistry bond :p

Ukhti A, uhibbuki fillah abadan abada. Walaupun kita kenal dekat US tak sampai 3 tahun & bukan dari kolej prep yang sama pun & dari lain uni, tapi seems like we had this inexplicable connection. 

I can talk to you and confide when I have probs ( in DnT esp), and we striked our weapons well. Like we've known each other for years. I truly cherish having you as one of my akhawati alhmahboobah <3

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Last but not least, ada dia pun berpesan. 

"Kita mengharapkan dakwah ini yang akan menjadi saksi waktu kita hidup di muka bumi ini kita penuhkan dengannya daripada waktu itu kita buang dengan hal yang sia-sia.

Kita mengharapkan dakwah ini menjadi penghapus dosa dan menjernihkan hati kita di saat kita sendiri adalah para dua’t yang lemah, yang tidak tertinggal daripada melakukan kesalahan.

Kita mengharapkan dakwah ini akan menjadi peneman hidup kita di saat manusia yang lain seolah menidakkan kehadiran kita di atas muka bumi ini.

Begitu tinggi harapan kita kepada dakwah.

Apakah harapan dakwah kepada kita ?

Jawabnya, tiada.

Dakwah tidak pernah berharap kepada kita.

Cuma kita yang berharap kepadanya.

Harapan kita yang paling tinggi semoga dakwah ini menerima segala amalan kita yang tidak seberapa ini dan sentiasa memberi peluang kepada kita untuk beramal dengannya."

TT__TT

Waqi'

Dah...lama dah nak cerita perihal waqi' ini. 

Tapi nak fokus cerita orang tengah dengan belah kanan tu. 

Just so I would not forget these memories;

I am truly thankful to Allah for presenting me with these lot of people who I met last Tuesday. 

It's a wonder, truly that Abah & Mak gave me permission to drive all the way to Pendang. No less with friends on the ride. 

When I first met this girl in the middle, we were attending USKAB at Pusat Dakwah, the masjid next to City Plaza (now known as UTC). 

It's unbelievable you know, to meet her again. As usrahmate, no less :') 

The first time we met, we were of different course, she was studying in Johor and I was about to fly to USA. Chances of ever meeting again, was prolly ZERO ! 

But guess what, Allah, with His magnificent power, somehow brought us  together on this road again. 

4 years later. 

And on that Tuesday, I was driving the car while she was the passenger. And she was the one who start recounting stories as I was driving back to Alor Setar. As usual, I only listened but really, I was crying in my heart. 

This girl, she is such a strong-willed and determined person. She comes to usrah from her house using bus. To reach the nearest bus station at her house, she had to walk outside her village first. Please tell me how many people can do that, even ? TT___TT 

And she told me, every morning she wakes up at 5-ish and helps her mom to pack nasi lemak. And then she went off sending nasi lemak to nearby buyers :'( Prolly by walking. I can't even fathom doing that. 

See how manja I am?

She is truly a God-sent gift to support me here, in Kedah. It's like having Harun one more time. This time, she's a Kedahan, just like me :)

As for the other girl on the right side, she is a SPECIAL God-sent gift all the way from Gombak. Holy schmolly, she even had this name that I liked since forever. 

And she, is one of the BM products (if you know what I mean). 

This girl, she's younger than the two of us but she's got that aura that resonates bright to people around her. 

She's a medical student by the way (not to emphasize the medical) but, you know how medical students are super busy. 

But she's so independent, and free-will, and so so willing to work on anything.

One look at her, and you'll say, " Whoa, this girl is a SUNSHINE!" Err because she just shines with faith and hopes :)

She said she likes being here, in Kedah. Wow, really? Hearing that coming off from someone who spent most of her life in the central area aka the hearbeat of tarbiyah...that's just something !

Even if she's a BM product, she likes to work things on her own. Meaning, mencari tarbiyah itu sendiri walaupun mak dengan ayah dia boleh je sangat nak guide dia here and there. 

But, here she is saying she wants to stay here, even. Ohhh how irony :'( I've been wanting to settle down over there, and here is one soul who is dedicated to "suburkan" Kedah...

As I am finished with the story of these two gifts, I could not but think, that there must be something that Allah wants me to learn from the two of them. 

And honestly, I can't wait! I can't wait to discover new things with the people here who are on the same road. 

Maybe, after all, there are some things to be relished here :)

Alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah. 

The Prophet (peace be upon him) related to us that Allah says: 

      "I am as My servant thinks of Me. I am with him when he remembers Me. If he mentions Me within himself, I mention him within Myself. If he mentions Me in an assembly, I mention him in a better assembly. If he comes near to Me a handspan, I come near to him the distance of a cubit. If he comes near to Me the distance of a cubit, I come near to him the distance of two outspread arms. If he comes to Me walking, I come to him running." 

[Sahîh al-Bukhârî (6856) and Sahîh Muslim(4832)] 

Spot On

There are three main types of perfectionism: self perfectionism – where you expect perfection from yourself; social perfectionism – where you believe others expect you to be perfect; and other perfectionism – where you expect others to be perfect. All three examples can be happiness busters. Being perfect is an unrealistic goal for you to place on yourself or others. Constantly falling short of the unattainable will continuously keep you blue.

I am terribly sorry, I think I just had too much time on my hands...astaghfirullah. 

But I kept promise to myself to write, hence I am :)

The above quote is somewhat relatable to most of us.

What makes me think most is that, how we as muslim/ah align perfectionism parallel with our core values in Islam (if that ever make sense) ?

And of course, what makes perfectionism as hindrance for happiness ?

Does perfectionism only exist once we're in Jannah ?

Questions to ponder...

Takut ke Tak?

I am a walking contradiction.

Hence, I need this reminder so bad.

Wah, rasa macam nak print & lekat kat dinding pun ada.

From Riyadhus Salihin Chapter 24 : Chastisement for one who enjoins good and forbids evil but acts otherwise.

"O you who believe! Why do you say that which you do not do? Most hateful it is with Allah that you say that which you do not do". (As-Shaf: 2-3)

198. Usamah bin Zaid (May Allah be pleased with them) reported: Messenger of Allah (PBUH) said, "A man will be brought on the Day of Resurrection and will be cast into Hell, and his intestines will pour forth and he will go round them as a donkey goes round a millstone. The inmates of Hell will gather round him and say: `What has happened to you, O so-and-so? Were you not enjoining us to do good and forbidding us to do evil?' He will reply: `I was enjoining you to do good, but was not doing it myself; and I was forbidding you to do evil, but was doing it myself".

[Bukhari and Muslim]

Manjanyaaa !

Kata seorang kakak ini,

Bila Rasulullah menyampaikan risalah islam ni, mmg ramai org anggap baginda gila. Sebab tauhid islam menyuruh utk sembah Tuhan yg satu yang ghaib. Apa lagi peristiwa isra' mi'raj. 

Da'wah ini mmg satu kerja gila. Berkorban utk org lain. Diri sendiri tak senang. Tak mewah. Selalu dilemma antara study @ da'wah. Keluarga @ da'wah.

Kita ni tak pernah rasa org anggap kita gila mcm Rasulullah dah kena dulu. Sbb tak rasa buat kerja gila. Sbb x pernah rasa susah.

SUSAH SIKIT MERUNGUT.. daie manja memang banyak merungut !

Age Gap

doesn't matter that much.

Speechless when makcik A came to visit last Thursday. 

And, seriously terharu. (Sebab I had the nerve to be such a jerk on that day)

She is literally the walking existence of this ayah: 

(Al Fussilat 41:34)

And not equal are the good deed and the bad. Repel [evil] by that [deed] which is better; and thereupon the one whom between you and him is enmity [will become] as though he was a devoted friend. 

For that, thankyou Allah for this friendship. It's hard to find people who can see goodness in others and be kind like her these days...

Lainnya kan, orang yang ditarbiyah. Like, seriously these makciks are rocking the world (dakwah & tarbiyah style) !

On the side note, every single human soul in this world is good because that's just their fitra, aight ?

What makes its more wonderful is that when the soul undergoes tarbiyah, the goodness shine even brighter subhanaLlah. Allah is the Greatest !

I've been thinking a lot these days about the system. Manipulating every single neuron in my mind to translate the ideas into actions.

How do, we want to tarbiyah or takwin people if they're still struggling with their own troubles ?

Dear ukht shared with me, that in order to do so, you gotta solve the problem they're having first. 

Contohla kan (eh terbahasa pulak), saudara terdekat kita ini seorang yang  dibelenggu dengan kemiskinan. Katakan kita nak terus ajak masuk usrah, rasa-rasa nak ke idok dia join kita ? Like, seriously, in all honesty, please answer that from the bottom of your heart. 

Oleh itu, kerja harus berstrategi ster !

And one more thing I learnt recently, you are not targeting everybody to join usrah (no, i'm not saying don't do that), but what I really meant is that, in actuality the purpose of doing dakwah fardiyah to our circles of influence is to try at least having them support your ideas. Dalam bahasa melayunya, menyokong fikrah kita :)

Contoh kata, kalau kita nak pergi usrah, mak ayah kita pun dah boleh terima, tidak menghalang sekeras-kerasnya. Ataupun rakan-rakan sekerja boleh menerima sekiranya kita bicara tentang islam bersama mereka. 

Alhamdulillah, itu sahaja...Janganlah kita menjadi terlalu idealis untuk terlalu menginginkan mereka menjadi seperti ibu bapa ikhwah akhawat hasil BM ya. Eh, tapi tak kata impossible pun atau salah kalau kita nak mengusrahkan mak ayah kita, cumanya mungkin agak mencabar sikitlah ya. Personally, fikir saya, punya abah emak yang punya mentaliti islami itu yang lebih penting pertama-tamanya. Sebab fikrah islamiyah tu yang penting...

Lagi satu, tambahan untuk point bagi mereka yang dalam proses mentakwin, ingin sekali saya nasihatkan agar jangan terburu-buru. Jangan terburu-buru melabel anak usrah 'fail' sekiranya mereka sepertinya masih tarik tali ataupun terlalu mengikut telunjuk (baca: dependent) setelah dua tahun lebih mengikuti usrah. 

Kalau yang baru dua sem ikut usrah tu lagi la kan...jangan dok expect tinggi sangat kat dia, nanti boleh jadi kes memetik buah sebelum masak pula. Kalau nak takwin dia untuk menderu dalam masa setahun tu, kena set mind & mu'ayashah lebihlah (tak kata pun tak possible hehe)

Hello, kita sendiri dulu pun lepas 4 tahun berusrah, mungkin waktu itu baru punya kesedaran nak menyampaikan...(Wahh, macam kes saya, dapat SH tak rasa apapun wahaha -___-)

Tolonglah jangan sesekali give up dengan mad'u. Sedih kowt kalau tetiba kita hilang permata-permata yang dah disentuh ni. Take good care of them, jaga ukhuwah like any good human being would do :) Give them a lot of chances to shine their way, okay ?

Kerna selepas itu, pasti ! Kita pasti akan mengimbau kembali saat-saat kita membuat keputusan sepanjang dalam DnT.  (Ni semua cakap dari pengalaman)

'Ala kulli haal, I've made my mind that I want to utilize this strength that I have, which is writing... for the betterment of the ummah. And so, I want to keep writing blog post as long as I can. 

Not that there's a lot of readers out there anymore, but ya know what, we can never stop doing amar makruf & nahi mungkar till the day we die. 

Who knows, this might be the only platform I ever had to gain pahala while my life is ticking away closer to death, every single second. 

Eyh?

Allah :)

Kami BFG & Kami OK

Somebody suggested that tagline on our last weekend BFG's getaway. 

Would love to put a video I captured on that day here, but I guess that won't be appropriate at all. 

Andd, guess what ? Yesterday, dear ukht who asked me my 5-year plan, gave me a recording titled "Agar Tidak Berguguran di Jalan Dakwah" mp3. 

InshaAllah will definitely try listening to that recording, and as she suggested, I will take my time to have a discussion with her biidzniLlah :)

Allah bless you for all these little things ukht ! 

The above title will try to break this mythos going on that BFG balik-balik Mesia, jadi senyap. Haha not going to justify any of that in this blog. 

Gotta take step towards knowing that, by actually contacting the BFG's themselves  ;)

Ketahuilah dalam dunia DnT ini, setiap dai'e terutamanya ex-murobbi/ah adalah orang yang pertama-tamanya yang akan cuba bertahan dan melalui ujian-ujian Allah yang akan menapis manusia-manusia yang ikhlas di jalanNya ini.

Jadi wahai akhawati fillah,

ضع الله نصبَ عينيك وقل وافعل ما يرضي الله فسيرضى عنك الصالحون والعقلاء، وقد تخسر من قيمهم مغلوطة أو عقولهم صغيرة

Letakkan Allah pada pandangan matamu, ucapkanlah dan lakukanlah perkara yang diredhai Allah, maka engkau akan diredai oleh orang-orang baik dan berakal. Namun, kemungkinan kamu akan kerugian oleh kerana penilaian manusia yang silap dan akal manusia yang kecil.